Doubts

There are days where nothing seems to make sense



All the hopes lost, the equipment spread on the floor, the house messed up




So much effort in preparation


all those emotions lived and thrown to the trash by those that will never return


or wasted in those that are too far from their own comprehension




The room is displaced and dark and I am here


lost in my thoughts where no one can reach me


neither to praise nor to demonish me for what I do




Doubts are also there


I am also human



Questions come, as to what I do and why I should do it


If what I do is right or wrong



I may ask, but there is no one to answer me


My life would be simpler if I could think that way




But I know it is not so




The right things can be done for the wrong reasons


as the wrong things can be done for the right reasons



Some things need to be done


Both for me and for the ones that come to me



I do these things for my own selfish reasons, as those that come do them for their own



There is no mandate to be a slave once in a lifetime


no stamps to put on a book


or a grade to achieve



There is nothing that forces me to be a master for the same reasons



There is only our own desire to do it



I know of the beauty of those that hide in the shade


The small treasures buried there


The value gained from these encounters



I like seeing it


exploring it


developing it



And there is a place in my slaves' lives to do so


There is too much effort in trying to logically justify why things are done instead of just accepting that people have different likes and needs


and that I am entitled to having my own



I will not blame myself for being who I am


And is part of my identity and will continue to be, even if I choose to ignore it



We are not machines


doing all the same


with the same bodies


eating the same food


dressing the same outfit




I accept myself in all aspects as well as my own path


If I don't, who will




My faults and virtues are for you to evaluate under your own point of view, if you wish to spend your time with it



But feel free to keep them to yourself if you disagree

if

you are furry, I can scrape you smooth



you are weak, I can make you strong



you are strong, I can make you weak



you are fat, I can make you thin



you are thin, I can make you fat



you don't know, I can teach you



you don't know yourself, I can teach you



you don't know me, I can teach you





and make you grow with that knowledge



in due time





but whatever change may come, I will not change what came before



I will only change what comes after





your past made what you are now



and made you come to accept the choice I present





if I erase it from your mind



where is the smile that you will show, with nothing to compare from before




your past is what makes you precious



if it is lost, you will no longer be you



just a mindless beast, guided by pain and pleasure



with no understanding of why it became that way



hiding deep within the desire to escape



only to one day find that what you are running from



is in fact what it always longed to have





so keep that mind of yours in one piece



in there exists a place for me to stay



to caress, poke and tease your thoughts in your moments of rest




to show you why you long for my chain on your neck

The Prize - Detailed

My original offer for a permanent slave is and will be the one specified on the post

A new Path: My offer 

You are free to re-read it if you wish

Nevertheless for the slave that fits the true slave ideal, I can offer something more

As I have no interest in having a slave sleeping in my house every single day, I will provide a place for you to sleep at night and to be for some hours alone in your thoughts

During the day you will be bound to work at my house


Naked and chained

In the afternoon after all work is done, you will get a chance to exercise yourself at a gym so you can maintain your physical abilities

After the gym you will have to return to my house and serve me again and be allowed to go to rest after dinner

During the weekends and holidays you will be at my service for the full day

For the duration of your contract you will be stripped of everything you have and every moment in your life will become dependent of me

There will be no contact with your world again


Papers, money, phones will be lost and all your online identities will cease to exist or become under my absolute control

Everything you eat, drink and dress will be my decision to make.

Every action you do will be mine to command

A collar around your neck and a cage on your cock will become your permanent companions on this journey

If I see fit I will also entertain myself training you to other aspects other than slave training

Languages, martial arts, philosophy, physical trainings or any other aspect I see you lacking of I will be your trainer

My goal is to make you better in everything you do so you will be able to serve me better

That demands time and trust


Something only a long time contract can provide

In the next post I will expose a day in the life of a slave committed in such a contract

The Prize - Proposed

For many slaves this is a dream


In their minds this is perceived as the culmination of all the training they have received and all the work they made to please their Master




All dreamers deserve a dream

So I will give you one



For dreams to become real, there is a price to be paid


My price is the fulfillment of my training



The weekend


The week


The month


The 5th step of slavery read and understood




There are no shortcuts in this game
 

Anyone that offers himself for the prize without earning, it will be dismissed like all of those that have asked before


The price is high indeed


But without the training, you will not understand what it means to be a slave in my hands and you will not be able to endure what is implied in a long term contract



It is unfair to make slaves go after a carrot only to find it missing in the hand that was holding it



My hand holds the carrot


It is tightly secured and I will not let go until I find a slave worthy of it



In my view this is not something that necessarily has to happen


In fact, I have no desire to provide it for any slave




This prize is reserved for the true slave


But I will allow you to see it




In the next posts you expose you to the dream




Enjoy

The end of the rainbow

I have seen many stories unroll in my time



Stories of slaves seeking new adventures with new masters, looking to try more intense situations and for longer than before



Trying out every experience in the book


Enjoying every feeling that comes from it



I would like to tell you that there will always be something more after you've achieved the top floor



There is indeed



But the path from that point is down




As you try out every drug in the business the previous one seems less and less appealing and does not quench your thirst any more




This is probably the most important crossroad in a slave's life



The options presented are


- As you cannot find any more pleasure in playing it, you quit


- As the role you play cannot give you any more to learn you try out the other role


- As you feel your limits have been reached you break all safety barriers and go the extra mile


- You have found the place to stay and you decide to do so




Whatever option you choose, I will not be the judge of that choice nor should anyone other than you




Make a wise and conscious decision



Don't regret it afterwards